24-12-2007 AH.FM End of Year Countdown

[eLement]

Are you saying that not even one good thing happened during the entire year?

I can say, pretty much no. Just alot of depressing things.

Here's just one for an example. Told the girl I liked, that I liked her. She was cool with it. Said she doesn't want a b/f (rejected) right now. And then tells me she's actually very ill with something called Lupus. -- huge downer

 

[The Cat Lady]

Life is for living, my tip for making 2008 great....get a bunch of friends together and get yourself off to some trance nights....doesn't have to be massive events, sometimes the night club gigs are just as good having that intimate feel :grinning:

I prefer the small clubs best. You're packed in like sardines, everybody jumping up and down, belting out the vocal tracks at the top of their lungs. It's great.

 

[danmark_ori]

* [Replay] 12-25 13 Lazarus - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM *

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE FROM HOUSTON, TEXAS


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★ happy new year :grinning: Altered-Mind ! ★​

 

[t4e]

Replay

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Lazarus
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tracklist:
1. Keenan & Anderson featuring Tiff Lacey - Runaway [Navigation]
2. Jaco & Mixxmaster - Feeling (D-Mark remix) [DanceDP]
3. DT8 vs Anguilla Project - Sands of World (DJ XaeR0 mash up)
4. Airbase - One Tear Away [Fundamental]
5. Catching Dreams - Timeless (Luke Warner & Mat Lock remix) [Crystal Clouds]
6. Blitz - Tantra (Marcos remix) [Bitter Sweet]
7. Tuomas J - Life Goes On (Lazarus vs James Alexander remix) [Defcon One]
8. Deems - Tears Of Hope (Aly & Fila remix) [Flux Delux]
9. Pierre Pienaar - This Is Where We Are [Nukleuz]

 

[The Cat Lady]

I can say, pretty much no. Just alot of depressing things.

Here's just one for an example. Told the girl I liked, that I liked her. She was cool with it. Said she doesn't want a b/f (rejected) right now. And then tells me she's actually very ill with something called Lupus. -- huge downer

Lupus is actually pretty bad. It destroys the connective tissue in the body. It gets worse over time. If it gets into the kidneys you die. They thought I might have it, but I kept testing negative. I have fibromyalgia, very painful, but not potentially fatal.

There's actually a loving reason why she said what she did. She doesn't want you to have to watch her suffer and perhaps die. There is nothing harder than to watch someone suffer and be helpless to help them. She was trying to protect you from that.

How do you really feel about her? How long had you been together?

 

[danmark_ori]

* [Replay] 12-25 13 Lazarus - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM *

What are you doing still up? I thought you had gone to bed, my love. Naughty Polar Bear. (kiss, kiss, kiss)

I wènt to bed. Slept almost immediately. Set the alarm beforehand.

At the first broadcast I missed the launch of DJ Magik's set ! I'll never forget the moment Magik was there ★

next set is [Replay] 12-25 14 Magik - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM 09:00h
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[danmark_ori]

* dedicated to some fond memories of last year .. .. .. (cries ) *

! ! c h ó ó n ! !
4. Airbase - One Tear Away .. .. ..
! ! c h ó ó n ! !
:lovers:
! ! c h ó ó n ! !
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[The Cat Lady]

I wènt to bed. Slept almost immediately. Set the alarm beforehand.

At the first broadcast I missed the launch of DJ Magik's set ! I'll never forget the moment Magik was there ★

next set is [Replay] 12-25 14 Magik - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM 09:00h
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Oh wow. What a beautiful post she gave you. Wow. She cares about us. :grinning:

I'm glad you got up for her show. She is so right. It's about the music and the community of people who love the music.

Magik: You are good people. Thank you.

 

[eLement]

Lupus is actually pretty bad. It destroys the connective tissue in the body. It gets worse over time. If it gets into the kidneys you die. They thought I might have it, but I kept testing negative. I have fibromyalgia, very painful, but not potentially fatal.

There's actually a loving reason why she said what she did. She doesn't want you to have to watch her suffer and perhaps die. There is nothing harder than to watch someone suffer and be helpless to help them. She was trying to protect you from that.

How do you really feel about her? How long had you been together?

Er no, that's not the reason she said no. We were never together (we were just friends)...and I dunno how I really feel. I think I may be in love with her, but I don't want to say that seeing as we've not been together.

 

[Vicky Wood]

I wènt to bed. Slept almost immediately. Set the alarm beforehand.

At the first broadcast I missed the launch of DJ Magik's set ! I'll never forget the moment Magik was there ★

next set is [Replay] 12-25 14 Magik - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM 09:00h
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it would appear that its changed now

 

[The Cat Lady]

2007 was both wonderful and awful for me. It was a mixed bag of emotions and events.

March: My roommate moved out owing me a lot of money. Bad.

April: Went to NL to be with The Bear. Wonderful.

August: Got demoted at work. Bad.

October: The Bear came here to be with me. Wonderful.

November: Got laid off from my job after 10 years. Bad.

December: Got executed at DI. Bad.

December: Was welcomed with open arms here at AH. And all of my friends are now here as well. Wonderful.

December: Got a new job that begins on Wednesday. Wonderful.

Life goes up and down. You never know what's right around the corner. But whatever it is, it's one hell of a ride!

 

[eLement]

it would appear that its changed now

Shit, I was looking forward to your set.

Any idea when it's gonna be on? I don't want to miss it. Well...in retrospect I can dl it when the torrents come out.

 

[Vicky Wood]

Shit, I was looking forward to your set.

Any idea when it's gonna be on? I don't want to miss it. Well...in retrospect I can dl it when the torrents come out.

Dan's fixed it, its back on next

 

[The Cat Lady]

Er no, that's not the reason she said no. We were never together (we were just friends)...and I dunno how I really feel. I think I may be in love with her, but I don't want to say that seeing as we've not been together.

Okay. This could be extremely important to you both. Give your feelings about her careful thought. If you find that you do, in fact, love her. Tell her that and tell her that you want to be with her no matter what. Tell her that you are not afraid, because believe me, she is. Tell her that you want to be with her through it all, and then be damned sure to do exactly that. You see what I'm saying?

It's not going to be a picnic in the park. She could die. The treatment is like it is for cancer. You can consider it to be a type of blood cancer. There will be times of remission when she feels really good, and there will be times when she is very, very sick. Are you willing to be there for her through all that? If you are, if you are a strong enough man to do that, and I am in no way whatsoever suggesting that you are not, then go to her and tell her that. But I'm warning you now, loving her will be painful because of the danger to her life. All you can do, because you can't really help her fight that fight, is to stand by her and give her what strength and comfort that you can.

But you have to be absolutely sure. Because anything less will make her fight just that much more difficult. It's the "worse" part of "for better or for worse". It's the "sickness" part of "in sickness and in health". It's "til death do you part" serious. Go to Web MD or other medical site and read about it. Know the enemy so you can know if you can help her win (or lose) that battle. (kiss)

 

[t4e]

it would appear that its changed now

yours is next according to the front page

 

[eLement]

Okay. This could be extremely important to you both. Give your feelings about her careful thought. If you find that you do, in fact, love her. Tell her that and tell her that you want to be with her no matter what. Tell her that you are not afraid, because believe me, she is. Tell her that you want to be with her through it all, and then be damned sure to do exactly that. You see what I'm saying?

It's not going to be a picnic in the park. She could die. The treatment is like it is for cancer. You can consider it to be a type of blood cancer. There will be times of remission when she feels really good, and there will be times when she is very, very sick. Are you willing to be there for her through all that? If you are, if you are a strong enough man to do that, and I am in no way whatsoever suggesting that you are not, then go to her and tell her that. But I'm warning you now, loving her will be painful because of the danger to her life. All you can do, because you can't really help her fight that fight, is to stand by her and give her what strength and comfort that you can.

But you have to be absolutely sure. Because anything less will make her fight just that much more difficult. It's the "worse" part of "for better or for worse". It's the "sickness" part of "in sickness and in health". It's "til death do you part" serious. Go to Web MD or other medical site and read about it. Know the enemy so you can know if you can help her win (or lose) that battle. (kiss)

She's not responded to the treatment. They cannot get her into remission. She's on immuno-depressive drugs.

And I dunno bout her not wanting me to be hurt part. I've already expressed that to her many times, and she just stands her ground. Who knows...even her best friend has trouble understanding her sometimes...

 

[The Cat Lady]

Er no, that's not the reason she said no. We were never together (we were just friends)...and I dunno how I really feel. I think I may be in love with her, but I don't want to say that seeing as we've not been together.

Oh yeah, one more thing. If by "not been together" means you haven't ever made love, you have to remember, sex is the icing on the cake. It's not the cake itself. It's the relationship and only the relationship that is the best part of the desert, the cake. Sex, the icing, will take care of itself.

If you see her as your very best friend in all this world, then I can promise you, the sex will be fantastic because you love her so much. (kiss)

 

[eLement]

Oh yeah, one more thing. If by "not been together" means you haven't ever made love, you have to remember, sex is the icing on the cake. It's not the cake itself. It's the relationship and only the relationship that is the best part of the desert, the cake. Sex, the icing, will take care of itself.

If you see her as your very best friend in all this world, then I can promise you, the sex will be fantastic because you love her so much. (kiss)

*munches on his ice cream* With her, I don't care about sex...truly. I just want her in my life. Sex is nice and all...but yeah...I hope you get what I mean...

 

[The Cat Lady]

She's not responded to the treatment. They cannot get her into remission. She's on immuno-depressive drugs.

And I dunno bout her not wanting me to be hurt part. I've already expressed that to her many times, and she just stands her ground. Who knows...even her best friend has trouble understanding her sometimes...

We had a friend at DI who had leukemia. She believed she was going to die. She was non-responsive, too. Her only hope was a bone marrow transplant. Like your GF, she was going through the process of "shutting her life down". She turned away from her on-line support group, her friends, until all she had around her was her immediate family. Her AVA said, "Deleted by God". And she disappeared from the forum.

She got her bone marrow transplant and she was lucky. Her body took that gift from another person and began to make red blood cells for her own use. She recovered.

The last I heard from her, she was moving to Berlin to begin her new life. She had an apartment and a new job. She got a new lease on life.

Your GF is doing the same thing that this young girl did. She is preparing herself for possible ... end. It's almost impossible for anyone who is not going through what she is going though, contemplating and preparing her mind and spirit for death, to ever understand what she is going through. She is NOT herself. She thinks she is going someplace where no one can follow. And that may very well be true.

Your job, if you do love her, is to break through that barrier, for she is building a wall around herself, to convince her that you don't care what she wants, you are going to be there for the duration. Walls like that, she is building not only to shield the people around her, but to shield HER from all the "living" thats going around outside of herself. Because she is looking at the other side of life, she doesn't think she has a "right" to participate in life anymore. It's your job to convince her that she is wrong. That she MUST participate in life until life itself finally fails. While life remains at all, hope endures. (kiss)

 

[danmark_ori]

* [Replay] 12-25 13 Lazarus - EOYC 2007 @ AH.FM *

yours is next according to the front page

hehe - just finished some reworked ec ​